milestone
watch this–i’m about to start off specific then trail off. this really isn’t for you as much anyway, so if you read it you read it. i’m not a writer, i’m a technologist, dammit.
i’m thankful for the revelation of Jesus, which, above all else, seriously, i cannot shake. Through all sorts of being everywhere, lack of belief, loves, losses, ups, downs, the constant that i’ve never been able to shake is the certainty of the son of Yahweh. There are a myriad of people and experiences that have come my way because of this, to challenge me (to exceed as well as recede), and i welcome them all.
i’m so thankful for having a wife who’s down for me whatever. talk about something else i can’t shake (hah i don’t mean that that way) — she’s changed me and helped me grow up. she’s given me some fantastic, funny, smart kids with a mind of their own, as much as she hates to hear it, truth is she’s caused me some of my best heartache (if that’s not what being in a love relationship is about though, what is–i think of Common’s lyric in verse one of “The Light”), but has given me the greatest sense of self i’ve ever had. i’ve been able to reconcile some huge pain in my past because of this woman.
i miss my family. we had such a time this past christmas. looking forward to coming together en-masse again. i’m the baby, so i don’t share many of their shared experiences, but was able to hook up with my “closers”, and i always learn i have more in common with the “upper tier” than i ever knew (a wink to my nerdy brother ken)
i love my friends. all of them. from the time i was born until now, i hold them dearly, and their imprint is a part of me, no doubt. in particular yall know who you are ima call you out–paul baari and (haha i alway think of him as the later friend but man you’ve always been down) bryant. the homies that i ended up being close to in south bend and chicago, no doubt, and now my people in pacific northwest. i hope to grow closer, and allow myself to be as vulnerable as i was in my childhood days. God demands it.
a huge part of a man’s identity is his work, and at the moment i’m severely blessed, and wouldn’t trade what i’ve been doing at work…i’m having a ball. any frustration is canceled out by feeling like i’m right in the pocket. now if we all can just ride out the economy i’ll be able to continue doing what i love. :)
starting to peter out, just at the good part…i gotta go lol
random thoughts:
i got another blog in which to write this, but after stepping on a max 350 scale last month and not being able to read my weight ‘cos i was over–i had to do something about my neglect of my physical self. i’m happy to be able to now be measured this month, with plenty of headroom, and still on a track of giving a crap again about my body.
i’m trying to read more. not sure if that’ll happen soon, but it’s on my radar.
dang i love the wii. its the console for grown ass people who don’t favor blowing stuff up. bigger stronger faster is out–smart systems are in.
that’s all for now, i really have to go (i’d say i’m working on the time thing, but i’m not–it’s a part of me that i aim to manage, more than try to destroy. being easy going can be an asset in many a situation:)