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Was it meditation? or medication?
figure with my diction of friction it must be the latter
I’ve always been sick with it that’s what i was told
or is it a drug-induced dream of a long road?
Was it seed i’ve sowed?
or was it only patches of the holes on an old dress code?
…
Can’t tell what the deal I feel like God used me
[couldn't] sell [myself] and that’s real i wonder did God choose me?
…
Please…don’t think ‘cos i’ve questions i’m a weak man
I stood alone and i’ll do it again
I don’t fear tomorrow, tomorrow fears me
Fear’s my vison, fear’s my family
The sun’s afraid to rise for fear of what i’ll do today
Fear of what i’ll say, scared i’ll outshine
I’m startin’ to remember why I first began
Holdin’ future in left and title in right hand…
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Now is the time for tears
Don’t speak
Save your words
There’s nothing you could say
To take this pain away
Don’t try so hard
You can just simply be
Cry with me don’t try to fix me friend
That’s how you’ll comfort me

Heavenly Father cover this child with mercy
You are my helper through this time of trial and pain
Silence the lips of the people with all of the answers
Gently show them now is the time
Now is the time
Now is the time for tears

-Charlie Peacock
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alrighty then–two updates in one day can you dig it? i’ve hidden the 0.7, ‘cos you’ll want to get this 0.8 version…the source is available, but I’ve also now made an installable runnable version available! basically just unzip somewhere, edit the conf/Jb.conf file, run jbe to encrypt your bot password into the Jb.conf file, and run! give it a go, and let me know what you think.

Alrighty — i’ve released another run of the Jb source — 0.7 (easily compiled). This one adds support for optionally logging incoming IM’s on a per-user basis, and now auto-attempt reconnect if the connection is lost (since for whatever reason, TOC likes to log folk out after a few dozen hours).

update on my JaimBizzle software: I’m currently adding “state” to the bot conversations–currently the model was that you sent a message, you got one back, but it was stateless, like a basic http connection. I’m adding logging of IM’s, and with that, the ability to “converse” with your bot. This will make it better for a wider range of applications (“You are walking down a dark corridor….” :). Logging functionality will be up this week, as well as some other minor changes, including auto-reconnecting after a connection has been lost ;). I’m also working on moving all info on this software from its hosted space on sourceforge to here, so i can easily maintain the pages via movable type.

Kind of a part of growing up, i guess…There had been times where i’d get a new development tool, or hear of a language, then i’d just download it and start trying to work with it. “I learn from experience!” I’d say. While that statement still holds true; I’ve picked up that I can take much more in by reading the documentation first, then trying it out. I’m at a point where I don’t have to rely on the documentation being 100% correct, but written well enough that i can understand the concepts behind the product (or language), and then go for it. But at the very least…reading the documentation first. I’m less sloppy that way, and a tad more patient, and spend my time a little better.

Application:
I’ve been reading a few books lately (see sidebar). In particular i’ve been getting a little bit into C#, by reading through the Nutshell book before starting, then messing with a little bit of sample code. It’s coming along better than if I would have just opened up SharpDevelop and started hacking.

well, i have photos i’ve taken in several places on the net–the latest however is at the Jones Soda Photo Gallery. Feel free to stop by there and show some love by voting (me up ;)

Caught this on bet.com: a woman has set up a site, boycotthematrix.com. I don’t follow who’ll actually be in the sequels, although I’m amped about them, and thoroughly enjoyed the first…but the character who played “Tank” will not be back! I’m really surprised–he was my favorite character in the movie–a young, handsome black male with smarts–i identified with him quite well ;). i’m a bit upset. Here is a link to the full article on BET.

UPDATE 5/11: there is insufficient information for me to decide to boycott said film ;)

j.

I am a member of mailblocks. i receive my mail thru mailblocks. this is due to the huge volume of UCE’s that I receive through all of my addresses. When you send me an email, and you have not sent me one in about 2 months (how long i’ve been with mailblocks) you will get an email coming back letting you know how to get mail through to me for the rest of your days. Advice — READ THE EMAIL YOU GET BACK. You’ll only get one message “bounced”, if you follow the directions in the email (and even that one will go through once you’re set up).

i’ve had so many cats saying “i tried sending you email but it bounced” but that’s not the case at all–it’s sitting in a special folder waiting for you to authenticate yourself. Sometimes i look into this folder, put the mail in my Inbox, then put you on my “Okay List” manually, but i get so much UCE (hundreds a day) that i generally don’t have time to look through it all the time, and may miss you. The instructions in the email are easy to follow, just read it & follow the instructions and you’ll be fine. Thanks!

my boys LA Symphony was in the house, at calvin college in Grand Rapids. the show was nice—cats finally got the gist and got live a little later into the set–i was a little upset i missed the very beginning (i drove 2.5 hours to get out there!) but was honored when they shouted me out when i walked up in the area :). my boy stank breaf was up in the house, as was messenjah and brown from the sphere boards. that was dope talking to you, brown. you’re right here homie (points to heart and mind). as usual they had a nice selection of CD’s out, one of which is a new Joey the Jerk joint–it’s ILL, so cop it when you can!

there are more pics up at tiffy’s site (i write “tiffy’s site” like i know her when the fact is that i only saw her out there last night, but she posted the pics link up at la symph’s message board :)